i wish we had had more time.
i had so much to say and you couldn't speak.
we had so much to do and you couldn't walk
couldn't eat; couldn't take care of yourself.
i did my best and wasn't there when you left this world
and my best will never make up for the despair i caused you
and i will live with that
but i smile at the thought of us cramming a lifetime in to three years
and i know the disappointment is my own and not your judgement
and i am blessed that you were my mama
until we meet again,
kat
